Being with Him now
Makes me realize
What i had with u
Was nothing but a lie
What i was missing
You made me compromise
How it didn't matter
Threw what i wanted aside
My standards for guys were always clear
How did i live without them?
It definitely wasn't love, but lust
And only now i know it
I deserve more
I deserve better
And "better" was never with you
Why did i let myself go blind?
Lust makes u crazy
Lust makes u easy
Why did i make that compromise?
Lust makes u stupid
Lust makes u foolish
I regret all my spent-up time
On u not treating me right
Around u, of all people
Why did i have to revolve?
I realize u were a mistake
Yet it took so long to solve
Things fell quickly into place with u
I felt so obligated
To say false things were on my mind
To match what your heart stated
Changed what i wanted for your convenience
Hid my doubt by making excuses...
"Perhaps what i want is too much to ask"
As if happiness and love come only through truces
Why did i keep my doubt inside?
Lust makes u kinder
Lust makes u blinder
Why did i choose, for u, to lie?
Lust makes u meeker
Lust makes u weaker
You made the rules
My wants pushed aside
My feelings at stake
Why did u get to decide?...
What was needed
To make this an "us"
What about what i needed
Why didn't i fuss?
Why did i let u draw the lines?
Lust makes u little
Lust makes u settle
Why did i praise that u were mine?
Lust makes u smaller
Lust makes u follower
I regret all my spent-up time
I wasted on u not treating me right
Now looking back i realize,
The world was against us the entire time
I see u now, & know for a fact
It wouldn't have hurt, had i listened to that
By staying in it
By compromising
My heart grew fonder
And the end was surprising
Over and over i told myself
That u must be what ive wanted
But because i gave in & settled 4 u
You took my self-doubt for granted
Every day i regret my fault
And how i couldve been so blind
If it wasnt for living with all ur mistakes
This broken heart wouldnt be mine
I had known all along
I had seen all the signs
I saw u a Heartbreaker
Yet i still gave u mine
Since u dumped me ive wondered how i let it begin
And i finally know the truth
Why was i so blind? How did i ignore it?
Because i fell in lust...
...and Lust makes you
