Just something i have to get out

I have millions of things to ask
but i never made a sound
this is one memory i didnt want to last
i remember the smell of the ground

i just want to know why me
and coudnt you see
how bad it hurt
what was it worth?

it never went as u fully intended
but it still is not fully mended
i wish u knew how bad i hate
to see your happy fate

why didnt u just kill me then and there
why didnt u hang me from the stairs
why couldnt u leave me be
i was only about to turn 13

i should let it go
but i wish someone would know
cuz this is the heaviest burden i have to lift
and it all started from a kiss