Although it may be hard to believe
Everything that I ever do
From giving you money to not partying
I do it all for you
The day that I found out
You were talking to someone new
My heart was broke and my mind went blank
Trying to think of what I should do
I know that you want other friends
And need to run your own life
But finding everything out
Struck my heart with a knife
Still not knowing what I did
Not knowing how to make it better
I came into my basement and cried
Cause of what you wrote in that letter
Not sure how I'm feeling now
A little bit of sadness mixed with the shame
I picked up my phone and called you
As I cried to you in vein
I told you to come back
I really needed to talk to you
Next thing I know we're fist fighting
I didn't know what to do
As I sat and cried for hours
Losing you again was all I thought about
You told me you no longer loved me
And said it without a doubt
I remember thinking to myself
Is she really going to leave me for that guy
Some person she has never even met
Not a day goes by without thinking of it, wanting to cry
All I ever did was love you
But maybe I loved you to much
I held on to you too closely
As I felt our friendship begin to crush
I never meant for any of this to happen
I never meant for you to want to leave me
Confused on what I should do
I never thought I'd be hurt to this degree
Please God, Help her to forgive me I say
As I hold my head and begin to cry
She tells me that it's over for good
As she looks me in the eye
Looking at me without an ounce of sadness
Not even a single tear
You packing up and leaving for good
Is something I've always feared
I would never want to lose you
As much as you think I might
I love and care about you no matter what
Even when we fight
I really need you to help me
Please help me to understand
Why you need someone else in your life
Tell me, What else you have planned
You yell at me when I say something
I guess it's true, you no longer need me
I'm no longer the person for you
But I'll be gone soon, you just wait and see
I see our friendship fading away
It hurts me so much deep inside
And you continue to push me
No matter how much I've cried
There's so much I wish I could change
Everything that happened over the past few years
But I know things will never be the same
I've tried so hard, and cried those countless tears
I did everything I could
Just to hold on to you
But nothing has seemed to help
No matter what I do
Through all this pain and suffering
Part of me has died
Your yelling and your pushing
Every word you said when you lied
I would never say I love you
If I didn't really mean it
I'm not going to lie to you
It's getting harder to love you, I'll admit
How can I love someone
Who is hardly ever around
What else am I supposed to do
When its your hatred, in which I'm surrounded
I never thought you would threaten to leave me
Leave me forever and for good
But deep inside I should have known
These things I've never understood
After you pack your things and leave
I hope everything you do, reminds you of me
While you begin to fall asleep
I hope it's my face that you will see
And as you look directly at me
You will see me begin to cry
Cause of all the pain you put me through
As you pushed me to want to die
I hope that once I'm gone
You think to yourself, What did I do
As you look up into the sky crying
Telling me you didn't mean to
I will look right back down on you
Just to tell you I wasn't lying
I told you several times over again
I wasn't afraid of dying
Then I will look as I ask
How could you possibly do this to me
I thought you loved me, thought you cared
I told you I would do it, don't you see
I did it cause of you
You said you no longer needed me anymore
I told you the only thing that I wanted
Was the friendship we had before
But you didn't listen to me
You just tuned me out
You put my life in your hands
And watched me die, without a single doubt
The whole time you said you loved me
You went directly behind my back
Saying the same things to someone else
The person whom I know as Jack
All I did was do my best
But that wasn't enough for you
One day I will pray that you see
Exactly how much you did to me
But its all over with now
It's finally at an end
But thank God for you
You've got a new friend
Written By Candice
April 12th, 2006
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