Here I sit in a puddle of tears
Crying out the pain and my fears
Becoming and empty case
Not being able to see that look on your face
Holding you close
Hearing you breath
I need the things that you can give me
Love
Pain
The good and the bad are all that I need
I remember when our relationship was but a seed
Growing and growing until it was a perfect blossom
Banishing all fear
Because the only thing that mattered was us
Ill do anything for you
I would kill
If you want I would kill my own family
My blood I would spill
You are all that has ever mattered to me
The only one I actually love
Do you love me back?
I asked you
And you said, "I dont know anymore"
That is what hurts the most
If you cheated on me with every guy in town
It would hurt less than when you said that.
Your love
It is the only thing that helps me live
Without it I slowly die.
Why is it that you had to make me cry?
I did everything I could to make you happy
I spent 3 days on a bus to get back from Alberta to visit you for just a few hours.
Oh, but you dont care
Of course not.
You could get another guy like me with a flip of your hair.
Some new prey for you poisonous lies,
Some other guy for that fake love in your eyes.
Being away from you was like being in hell.
Now you dont want to see me at all
Hearing that has made my hopes fall
Silently contemplating how to die without breaking promises
Should I cut?
Should I jump?
I should just forget about you
Trust me I have tried
But when I close my eyes there you are
Looking at me with love
Now you look at me with hate
Break my heart more with every step you take
Walking away from me
Drifting farther from what you used to be
I need your love
It is all that have
The only thing I have ever had
My sanctuary
My strength
Now I am weak and afraid
Ever since that farewell to me you bade..
I write this for everyone else to show them my pain
To show them how easily that love is slain
I hope no one else has to feel this alone
She wont even talk to me on the phone
I know that other people feel this way
I feel worse because of that
I wish I could take the burden from them
Take away all of their pain
Make them happy
Because without her I will never be
That I wish she could see..
I thank my friend Laura for the love she has given me.
Even when Kristy has not, she has always been there for me
Keeping me alive
From hurting myself
Knowing someone loves me as much as I loved this one girl.
Laura if you read this please dont be mad
I dont think I can keep the promise I made you not to hurt myself.
I love you so much
You are the second person I ever have.
Laura..
I wish I had you
That you did not belong to Jake
When you told me he cheated on you
I wanted kill him slowly and make him feel the pain that you felt
Wanted to cut open his chest and tear his heart out..
Broken promises
Broken dreams
The hurt of other people and their silent screams
Of my strength I am beginning to doubt
I have screams inside too that I want to let out
Well I am going to let anyone read this go
You don't want to read this crap.
I just wanted to let you know.
