Slowly Kills Me Inside and Out.

Just the thought of you
has put me down,
which is weird cause
thats all i can think about.
And oh my god,
it makes me want to shout.
But I have to keep
it to myself.
Which slowly kills me
inside and out.
I'm trying to say goodbye
to my friends
cause I know
I wont be here till the end.
And my aunts just as
depressed as me.
And my cousin just wants
to go crazy.
And all this pressure is slowly me inside and out.
And of course
there is that perfect guy,
but I'm scared
he'll tear me apart,
then he'll go and break my heart.
That is enough
to slowly kill me inside and out.
I think I'm ugly.
I think I'm fat.
And there is no way
to change my mind about that.
Which is slowly
me inside and out.
I don't deserve to be
on this Earth.
I'm just someone else's place.
And I really wish that god
would take me away.
Which slowly kills my love ones inside and out.