No body cares anyway

`I scream at the top of my lungs to let everything out
I gasp for breathes in between my pouts
Rock back and forth with my knees to my chin
Holding tightly to the pin
Digging in not letting go
I can feel my heart beat slow
Releasing all my muscle strain
Ending all my on going pain
Closing one door and opening another
my pain and my life ending each other
no one will miss me when I'm no longer here
no body will shed a single tear
they donâ??t care now and they wont then
they want me to leave they always ask when
well this is the when the when is now
and this is my way this is the how
the pin to my wrist
with one final wish
this is the way I pick
but please god make it quick