The Days..

The days got shorter,
my dear father,
why have you put us through this?
I know I talk a lot about this,
But you have really hurt me,
I thought you could be what I and mom wanted to see.

I don\'t know how to deal with this pain,
My blood and misery is washing down the drain.
The pain keeps coming back through the rain.

I miss you, but I do not want too.
I love you and I need you,
But in another way,
Im glad you went away.

Friends and family,
are hurt by this,
I am just showing it more,
I know you think I don’t care,
I would love to share,

But I cant, I have to deal with that fact,
what you did was wrong,
mom did this way to long,
Im glad I actually understand what you did,
Everyone telling me am strong inside,

But the truth is I am dying with in,
you closed the lid,
You did not think about letting anyone else in,
All you did was think about your self,

Atleast when I am hurt,
I know how to deal with it now,
I write and tell,

I listen to so many songs,
That remind me of our family,
How hurt we are.

\"What hurts the most\"
\"was being so close\".
But dad you have choose,
Other things over me,
I am sorry,
But I cant handle that being.

Choose me or the other things,
Look what you have lost because of something so stupid,
Maybe next time you will listen.

-Lonley With In-