Weeks and weeks have gone by.
I’ve been sad I’m not goona lie.
I am who I am,
I feel what I feel,
She’s in my head screaming like a seal.
I can’t help my thoughts,
I have no shield.
It will take me some time to heal.
My thoughts at times are caring me away,
Away from that beautiful place that I could be in.
I don’t know why it’s still stuck on my mind.
I’m trying to forget those dark times.
I wanna live happy,
I wanna have a smile on my face.
Live my life well,
And go up to a beautiful place.
It’s amazing to how people’s lives change.
Seconds to minutes,
Minutes to hours,
Hours to years,
Some memories become tears.
Good and bad,
I can’t be mad.
It’s just the feeling,
That’s just stuck in me.
I saw a dream about her texting,
I saw a dream about her calling,
Than alarm went off
Opened my eyes and saw it was morning.
It was meant to happen the way it did,
God didn’t want me to see the rest of the dream.
But I ask,
Why even see or even think?
I don’t understand, please God forgive me for all my sins.
I’ve been through so much.
In pain and suffering day and night.
It’s not easy,
It’s hard.
I wanna get through it quick
But that’s not how you want.
I don’t know if I deserve it or not.
But I know you’ve given me a second chance.
I’m a person with a good heart.
I just wanna love and for it not to be hard.
I know it’s better apart.
And I wanna thank you for helping me through it.
Now you’ve given me a different mind set.
And now my heart is red.
She’s the last person I think about,
Every time I got to bed,
I rarely dream about.
I rarely see or think about her.
That’s cuz I know
There’s someone else who deserves me more.
So now I’m happy,
With little sadness felt.
That’s exactly what I want,
I needed her off my chest.
I just don’t feel the same way anymore,
I want her out of my life ever more.
I need happiness,
Not stress.
I’m only Twenty,
Trying to live and start fresh.
Now is the time to get my life together.
Find the bird with beautiful flying feather.
I’m goona find it sooner or later.
And that’s all that will matter.
I know my life will be better.
