I WOnder

To take a knife and cut through my veins,
i'd get rid of my thoughts and erase all my pain.
The distraction of blood dripping onto the sink,
makes me feel so much better that i no longer have to think.
I wonder what it'd be like if i wwasn't here anymore,
and how you'd react to find me dead on the floor.
Would you cry and be sad.
or would you lie and be glad?
Just admit it, you don't love me like you used to,
and trust me, i don't blame you.