What I Really Ment to Say

I didn't want it too happen, and 3 years ago, I'd never had seen it coming. But it happened over night, one day he was strictly my friend, no more, no less. And the next emotions came with a rush, hitting me all at once. I was overwhelmed with all these feelings I'd never had. Maybe they were so strong because I fell for him, but they were there and that was that. I hesitated of course, but one day I reluctantly told him, my heart literally sank, he said no, he didn't want a relationship, but that wasn't the hardest part, that came when we grew apart, the hardest 3 months I had to go through, but eventually we had our friendship going again, tip-top shape. He apologized and told me he cared about me, but liked the way we were and what we had. Later, the truth came out, he was scared, he had never had anyone care for him as I did/do and he panicked... now, 3 yrs later, we are time closest of friends, nothing more nothing less, but with each passing day we grow closer together... all i can do is wait, give him time so that when he is ready, i can finally tell him just how much he really does mean to me !