Loves obstacles

I must choke back the tears..
see the love around me...
those who are close to me leave me behind for the ones they love...

i wake up in dreams finding there not really falling to the floor and i then always break down and cry..

As the make-up runs down my face..
and i scream your name...
my tears are drown out by all the pain.
i cut out the pain i scream at the top of my lungs...
i fall to my last fall is what i desire..

it seems that my love for him has run into more obstacles and it can not surpase....