When I close my eyes,
I get scared of not knowing,
Not knowing what could happen.
I found that light in my world,
but it went out with a crash.
Leaving me all alone in a tight,
place with no one to talk to.
I act as if I was fine,
I talk as if everything was perfect.
But the day he did what he did,
I lost my mind......
Insane and alone are the
two worst feelings anyone could have at once.
Spending days locked up in my room,
trying to protect my mother and kid sister.
Screaming at GOD to help me,
not knowing what to do.
To be strong,I got to carry on,
Times are hard, no one to talk to,
I tell myself that I'm lost in this,
damn world, so scared,
running in circles,
my lips are sealed,
not say another word.
He comes home to say his last goodbyes,
I dare no hug him for what he did as the family unties,
Does he even know that today is his little girls birthday?
The pain runs deep,
I thought things were going alright,
I love him dearly,
now I'm just heartbroken and alone,
I know that I am laying in my coffin,
Maybe he should have cared more often,
To put to death by a broken heart that nobody could heal,
now he has to deal,
at age 17 no one deserves to die,
No more last goodbyes,
I had a bright future,
But for me no more torture.......................
