Your Memory

*I am aware that this stink...I needed to get some stuff out though*

how long has it been?
how many hours, days, months?
has it been years?
i can't count the endless months
of pain that i felt for pushing you away
and now it's all too late
you're gone, i can't find you
trust me i've looked
everywhere i could think of
but you are no where to be found
is it that you don't want me to find you
are you hiding from me?
did i push you that far away?
why....

i loved you
with all of my heart and soul
oh how i loved you
i guess that was the problem
all along
i loved you too much
to watch
as you went and loved another

your memory never leaves me
i remember your voice
clear as day
i remember
the way you looked
so cute in that uniform
how proud you were
when you conquerd your addiction
to alcohol
your memory never leaves me
although i wish sometimes
that it would just fade a little
so that i wouldn't feel the pain
that always comes with it