Away From This Road

-I am sorry this may be long-

I lay my head against the desk
And wait for the class to end
Tick tock, the time is speeding
And there is nothing that I penned

The teacher gets up, comes to me
And picks up my empty sheet
Flashes it up around the class
And screams out it's incomplete

Since the assignment was too easy
The students break out into a laugh
With tear stained eyes I get up
And make my way out of the class

The bathroom stalls are empty
I throw my school bag on the floor
It wasn't that I couldn't handle it
I just can't take life anymore

I look into the dirty mirror
And my eyes are bloodshot red
The nineties and good grades I get
Never troubles my young head

I open up the leaky faucet
To splash cold water on my face
I need to clean my soul of sin
And wipe these layers of disgrace

The shivers have me trembling
As black tears escape my eyes
Why is it no one cares for me
I know: not one soul even tries

The pain is very overwhelming
Life is cruel and so unfair
I lean against the bathroom stall
And cry out in despair

Dad hates and ignores me
Mother never cares to see my face
My sister is in her own little world
No body sees me out of place

I bend down slowly, lift my bag
and walk out of the restroom door
People stare and whisper plenty
But I don't care much anymore

Injurious fools, maliciously waiting
For any opportunity to speak
I look down at them in disgust
And laugh at how they're weak

Someone's hands lay against my chest
Startled now, I quickly lift my chin
To find only the security guard
Saying "no girl, you must stay in"

Stay in my life, this living h3ll?
I ponder repeatedly in my mind
I look around at others staring
What the fcuk they must be blind

How could they not feel pain and hurt
and despise their pointless lives
All my life I have been striving,
Surviving in a place of hate and lies

I shake my head and push away
Moving through the school door
I do not care much about them
In fact, I do not know them anymore

I hear a faint sound behind me,
A screaming, pleading kind of voice
And with my feet I start to run,
God has given me this choice

The rain beats heavily on Earth
And as I run the sky gets dark
But still, I keep on running far,
Away from the road I can't embark

He must've never heard me
When I pleaded for his help
Because I knew I wasn't strong
I could not make it by myself

And now I feel I'm lost forever
This place looks different I can see
No one is begging me to stay
Not one soul has come for me

Large gates open in my eyes
Black figures force me through
I hear loud screaming, gurgling pains
And see bodies lying askew

My struggles are not good enough
Oh wait now; they never were
My screams are not heard at all
Of course, like always, just a blur

No let me go, I plead and cry
Yet out of my lips no sounds leave
I wish to say I'm sorry...foolish was I
still, the words my heart won't heave

Suddenly I slip away, quickly
Out of the grasp, into the free
My heart beats in distance loudly
A lucid warning, it is for me

The drums beat heavily in my ears
And as I move there is only dark
But still, I keep on running far,
Away from the road I can't embark

-I don't know if it is good, or even understandable enough...but I would appreciate any feedback! I will return the favor.-