The pain I hold dear to me,
the cries at night I come to bare,
are nothing compared to what you do to me.
You shed your hate towards me,
to make yourself feel better,
not even caring how much its killing me inside.
Those words, those vindictive words you say to me,
the pointing of the fingers,
the screaming and yelling at me.
Pushes me to the edge of weakness,
and there I am,
thinking of death.
I tried so hard to fight your manipulative ways,
try so hard to block you out,
but you are there..
you are all I got.
No one else wants me,
you made sure of that,
your claws digging into the hearts of your loved ones,
and them running away.
I stand out in the cold,
wondering where my heart went,
wondering where is my soul,
where is my mind?
where am I?
I turn back to the door of pain,
and there you are,
holding them within your bosom,
as if you treasured them to some sick sense that I could not understand.
So I slowly make my way to your arms,
wishing I can escape you,
but you are still there,
you are always there,
and I want out.
And in some twisted way,
I love you,
because you are all I got,
because this is all I have,
because this is all I deserve.
I deserve nothing..
I want nothing..
I am nothing..
