Why did i lisen to my heart?

I cant help but sit here,
and think about you,
even after all the things you put me throw,

i think of all the times you told you would always be there,
and when i need you the most,
you were never there,

i think of how i loved you,
oh so much,
but no matter what i did,
it want never enough,

i think of how you loved her,
while i was loving you,
and how i never could live up to her,
no matter what i do,

i think about it alto,
probably more then i should,
it just kills me to know,
if you could date her, you would,

its like i didn't even matter,
its like you never cared,
like it didn't bother you,
to throw away the love that we shared,

if only i could tell,
your truth from a lie,
then maybe i would know,
all the answers to my whys.