Letting you go

I still love you
but I will learn to hate you
you are my life
and I will never forget you

I try to stand up tall
But always ending up thinking of you
Your lips are like gold
Your touch is hard to forget

I stand here in shame
For letting you out of my site
Even for one last kiss
I would do everything for

My friends told me to turn to self harm
I thought about suicide
I turned anorexic
All because of you

Now I stand here in guilt
For letting you get to me
Because I need to learn how to hate you
Before you make my life waste away

I never knew first love could do this to me
i am stupid
I am selfish
For letting you get to me

So that is why I still love you
But I will learn to hate you
Because you were my life
And now I must forget you.