Faith in Pain (To Nat)

Wow, Car.

Just. WOW.
Are you even human????
...
You seem to be like you're far ABOVE the human race...like...you're an angel or something. Or. An Alien maybe?
haha.
Well either way.
You're too good to be true and I thank god E.V.E.R.Y.D.A.Y. for a friend like you.
Yes, yes. I'm lucky to have you, XD

I have a friend who called me the other day...her grandmother fell and broke her hip...during surgery she had a stroke and fell into a coma...she was screaming and crying on the phone asking me why God was doing this to her...why was He trying to hurt her. She was dealing with the death of those 2 high school friends as well along with her grandmother and it seemed (TO HER) that life should just be over...I could hear it in her voice. All I could tell her was He had a plan and she can't question that. I found myself sitting in this sub shop regretting the way I felt, asking myself over and over WHY and HOW I could ever say the things I said and question His book the way I did. Going through it and then consoling someone else for something similar makes you look at it a little differently. I was going through this WHY ME / HOW COULD YOU phase...The two kids that died were not close to me by any means. I wasn't best friends with them...but I grew up with them so it was hard. Seeing them one day and knowing the next that it was last time. Imagining them being gone for ever...it seems impossible. So now my friends grandmother is pulling through...and it's bringing her family closer...His reason...I believe as her family has been going through A LOT!! So I get it now...I'm not questioning Him - I wish I could know why but I understand it's what HE decides, not me. Though I wish with everything in me that I didn't have to endure the loss of human life I realize it's part of life as one day everyone will deal with my passing. Death is not something that I take lightly...whether it be close to me or not. I saw a man knocked off his motorcycle lying in the middle of a street one time and I was messed up for weeks. He was all I thought about. So when it gets close to home it's definitely hard. I believe whole heartedly that everything happens for a reason but as for death...I've been unsure what the "good" reasons are...I'm more understanding and accepting now.

This poem brought tears to my eyes. The fact that you took the time to write this is absolutely amazing to me. I love the faith you showed and you reassured so many things for me. Thank you so much! You're a sweet heart and you will never know how much this really means to me!! Not only is it a huge inspiration with an awesome message it is so well written!! Excellent stuff!!! THANK YOU! :)

Oh and by the way, i will continue to pray for you and Nat, whatever is going on in your lives right now.

Chelsey-Lynn is right, it is definately refreshing to see a poem like this! I think thats the thing that most people have a hard time remembering, is that no matter what we are going through, God's will always comes to pass, sooner or later, and don't forget that He will not put more on us than what we ourselves can bare. I personally went through a very rough time a few years ago, and it turns out it was God testing me; you just have to keep trusting Him because through it all if you stick by Him, it'll be worth it in the long run, even though it may seem that at the time your just praying to air and that no one is there, but that is definately NOT the case. Of course there are different tests and God has a plan - He knows what He is doing, and eventually you'll break past whatever is going wrong (I don't know what it is) but He will not fail you, and you will become closer to Him than ever before.
Fantastic Job on this poem.. you have an incredible talent for writing :D
Much Love,
Sarah-Joy

You know let me say how deeply touched I am..it is so AWESOME to FINALLY see someone write a poem like this...normally when a friend is feeling down we write poems to cheer them up...but to write a poem and REMIND them of Gods love....how precious and because of that this makes it one of my favorite recent poems!! Poor Natalie I hope and pray she is doing better!

We look up into the clouds
And have the nerve to ask "Why?"
We don't deserve answers
We deserve in shame to die
^^^ that line was powerful and so true for many!!

"God, I can't do this,"
"God, I don't understand!"
We want to see the reason
We want to doubt His plan
^^^ that was my favorite because EVERYONE in the world has experienced that and many fail to see that we can not doubt Gods plan because even through troubled times he always pulls through in the end...there are just situations we go through because of Gods test he wants to see how we react to them!
LOVED THIS WRITE!