These thoughts are all so numbing,
about things I and others go though,
The secrets are kept concealed,
to protect me from gossip, tears, the truth.
I go about my day, as eyes try to break me,
but it won't happen, I've grown too strong,
To open up and let others deceive me,
I've played this part for years too long.
Everyday the truth is at risk,
my real life and emotions could show,
But I make no mistakes, take no chances,
for the real challenges are ahead, I know.
I cry at night to stop the pain,
and brighten my outlook on life,
But tears only make a small difference,
and don't change anything worth while.
So I sit here calmly wondering,
what I did to deserve this pain,
Or if thinking about this question
is just a tool used to pass the blame.
I don't know why I got no warning,
to shield me from this life I have to live,
There's nothing I wouldn't do to get out,
and nothing I wouldn't ever give.
