Letter I

Sometimes I'm tired to be the one
That has to take care of you when you feel undone.
Sometimes I wish you'd go away and leave me alone,
I don't want anymore of your problems for I have my own.

I'm always wondering if you ever thought about
Having a normal conversation with me without any shout?
Have you ever thought about how much it hurts me
When I hear everything you say about everyone I always see?

Sometimes when I hear what you have to say
I count my heartbeats to know if I'll live today.
Sometimes I try not to blink so often for
I don't wanna shed a tear till you leave and close that door.

Are you aware of how this affects me and how confusing it is?
You are the one that takes more than he ever gives.
I'm sorry I'm saying this but I have to let my pain break free,
I can't keep it all inside for I'll never gaze upon the real me.

Sometimes... I'm sick of all your lies,
Because it's so confusing and are those really tears in your eyes?
Sometimes you see, I can't really tell when you're lying
As I cannot tell if your eyes are red from either anger or crying.

Will I ever know what makes you act this way?
Will I ever see the truth behind the things you say?
Will you ever cease to hurt yourself, probably on purpose?
Will you ever throw your mask and reveal what lies beneath its surface?

Sometimes I think you'll never stop
That you'll just keep on doing this till I count my last tear drop.
Sometimes... I think that you don't really care
For the one that in spite of all still loves you and wants for you to be there...