Killing me from the inside

Kicked away in a random place,
Illusions strangled by an iron lace
Leaving me here all alone and dying,
Leaving me in suffering and crying...
Inside, the flame of hope is going dim
Nothing seems to revive it within...
Going crazy, I feel paranoid
Moving closer to the void,
Everlasting confusion, blown away by blizzard cold
Feeling like my heart's been fold.
Remembering all and nothing at all
Oblivion takes over, will you hear me call?
Motionless run driven by feet that won't move
The time has come; what have you to prove?
Heated skin by burning flames,
Ethereal existence lost in the maze...
Inner strength slowly starts to fade,
Nothingness settles in, hurting more than a rusty blade.
Sleepless nights for you await dawn
In your room that is so hollow and you feel undone.
Down with the sun, your mind goes too,
Everything around seems surreal, untrue...

--> Read the letters from the begging of each verse :P