And Here I Am

Lights are out and darkness seen
They say I dug this hole myself
And here I am
Drenched in my own tears
Wishing I was drenched in my own blood
I've fallen further than I have ever been
It feels awful like nothing else
And here I am
Controlled by my fears
Lying broken in the mud.

All around the world is black
The darkness makes me cry
And here I am
I had my happiness back
Now I am wishing just to die

April 15th 2006