No answer

I close my eyes and hear the clock ticking.
It's closer to 12 and off I'm drifting.
As your voice starts to decrescendo,
My breathing becomes steadily slow.
Still half awake, I hear you say goodnight.
So in return I too say goodnight sleep tight.
I asked if you will hang up or not,
When you said yes, confused I sadly nod.
Normally you'd be there till I'm fast asleep,
But we disconnected and it hurt me deep.
I made up my mind, I would call right back,
After I find the bible on the rack.
I flipped to Corinthians chapter of love.
And read what was from up above.
Once finished I quickly speed dialed your cell.
It rang and rang but with an extra bell.
That only meant you were on the other line
You didn't pick up which was divine.
I called some more but still no answer.
So a text I sent hoping you'd call sooner,
What felt like forever was only minutes.
Again I called and still nothing of it.
Tears now flushing down my cheeks,
Myself inside is getting so weak.
I tried to reason myself not to cry.
But soon after it was tears I could not dry.
I too recorded one short voice-mail,
To call me back soon, you had failed.
So angry so scared, and very guilty,
You seem to be going away from me.
I called and called then finally a 'Hello'.
So happy, relieved, but way too mellow.
There I lay with you on the phone,
At that time my voice had no tone.
It hurt me most when you said no more.
You had nothing to say not even a word.
Thought you felt there's no reason to be sorry.
The more you prolonged the more I worry.
Turned out you picked up because of one thing,
You and your friend's phone was disconnecting.
If not for that we wouldn't be talking,
And knowing that was not very appealing.
I just can't believe why you'd do that to me.
I thought you wanted me to be worry free.
That night you had hurt me dearly,
So all I ask is don't repeat it to me.