You tell yourself
that I am fine
that I shouldn't cry
that I shouldn't whine.
You tell yourself
that tomorrow will be better
that today is just bad
but each day that goes by
I am only sad..
You tell yourself
that I'm not suicidal
that I am strong
that I am a fighter
I am here to tell you
that that is not me
I am so much different
than you perceive
This isn't a phase
or for attention, a lie
these are my ways
I don't want to cry
Not anymore
I just want you to see
I am not your poor little girl!
I am hurting,
deep inside,
you don't see it
still the time passes by
you don't know
how could you?
I hide it so well
I need help
I need to get away from this hell.
I'm begging
I'm pleading
please help me now
I've lost control
and I'm not sure how
but I've lost everything within my soul.
I'm suffering
and you don't care
I'm suffering
and this pain is everywhere.
