Gone

Silence...
this has been the only thing around me for quite a while now.

I ran out of words...
I ran out of options...
I ran out of ideas...
I might even have ran out of tears...
And silence is the only thing that keeps me alive.
Alive when a heart is about to stop beating;
alive when the world just falls apart;
alive when in my eyes sadness is all there is.

Never say never...
I should know better!

"Never fall in love," they say...
How was I supposed to know?
I wish that was something I could control.
But I can't.
I couldn't... or could I?
It doesn't matter when it's too late.
And it is now...
Just too damn late!

But I loved...
and I still do...

So what to do when you become speechless?
And when you tried everything you could?
What to say when you've said all there was to say?
"Just let it go..."
"If it's meant to be it will be..."
It's just so easy to say...
It's so easy to love, and so hard to let it go...
Why's that?

...

I still don't know why, or how,
but it all happened so fast.
I don't know why you changed,
and how I changed.
I don't know who's fault it was,
or if any of us can be blamed on...
I don't think so.
*sigh*

Maybe I just wasn't good enough...
or maybe I wasn't supposed to be happy...
I hate the way this makes me feel!
Life is just a word that has no meaning
when death is the last one to reach it.
Or maybe that's what makes it meaningful,
to know that we will never be in the same moment again.
It makes sense... and no sense at all sometimes.

Words...
confusing and useless...

So here I am,
and there you are...
And all I have is silence.
When I close my eyes,
when I try to sleep,
when the music stops, ...

Silence...
That's all there is when everyone is here,
but you are gone.