The meaning of my life

Every tear i shed for you,
every smile i smile for you,
everything i do is for you, not me.
every thought i think of you,
every dream i dream of you,
everything i say is of you; come see.

ive cried so much in my lifetime that tears no longer come,
i forget what laughing is; what its like to have fun.
all that i think of nowadays just has to do with you,
right now my eyes see few colors; just black white and blue.
youre everything to me and youre all of the wealth ive got,
you have control of my heart; right now its tied in a knot,
and althought youre not here with me, it seems like you are near;
i feel all of your sadness, emptiness, and even fear.

i try to remember all of the times i had with you.
i look back and suddenly see the times i never knew.
i see all of the memories we could and should have shared.
life is flavorless; to your love nothing else compares.

every day youre in my thoughts, along with every night,
without you here to help me, ive lost sight of what is right.
i wish you could be with me now; id love to see your face.
id love to look into your eyes and heart and be embraced.

i see you laughing, having fun, without me there to share,
it makes me long for days that we could share alone somewhere.
and now as you lead down a path only i cannot take,
i feel like lifes not meant for me... like im just a mistake.

although i might change over time, my thoughts will stay the same.
ill still have that burning desire, the hot and raging flame.
and thought some days it might seem like the flames are dying out,
youll always be in my heart; youre what my lifes all about.

i may have given up some hope, but my dream will not die.
each dawn means the start of a day in which you should draw nigh,
but as i wait helplessly for my own horse-riding night,
another unsuccessful day goes by, and one more night.

until the day you rescue me, ill rest in peace my friend.
ill lay and wait eternally; ill wait until the end.
until you rescue me i will not be at all awake.
i may be on the outside, but the inside is a fake.

ive cried so much in my lifetime that tears no longer come.
my heart ached so badly that it feels no more; its numb.
but though im feeling all this now, my wish just might come true.
my dreams, my thoughts, my fantasies..

my hopes of meeting you.