Confused

It's all confusing now
messed up how
my life's turned upside down
memories and feelings wont go away
I'm to afraid
I can't face whats in front of me
theirs to much misery
he left me to be alone
how should I condone
I try not to cry
but it happens all the time
I don't know what to do
when he says he'll wait for you
when I turn eighteen he'll be pleased
should I go running back
to someone that hurt me so bad
but after what us two been through
I cant choose...

PLZ COMMENT AND TELL ME WHAT U THINK......I PROMISE I WILL RETURN THE FAVOR