He's my friend!

I don't know why,
but I'm in love with him,
after I told myself No he's a friend of mine,
and that's why we could never be,
just putting us in this situation,
is beyond the passion I should have shown,
I'm not sure what to do,
simply the fact that we grew together,
had classes, lunches, and in years time learned to trust and protect another,
we've gotten to know each other beyond the associate, but as family,
he's seen me at my most vulnerable,
and I've seen him at his worst,
at points and times in my life,
I see him as my big brother,
then on the lonely nights I wish he was my lover,
Thru the intimate scenery flashing in my mind,
and the fluttering my heart does when we are close,
I remind myself,
He's my friend!