I Was meant For no one to see

Words are all I have
And sometimes not even those
There are no words to describe how I'm feeling right now
Some say a picture is worth a thousand words
but only if someone knows what to portray
I'm lost within myself
I've fallen under my own shadow
I created the world I inhabit
And forgotten the escape route
I'm locked within my mind
I'm tortured by my mistakes
And though I feel so far away
I know what's really going on
But I cannot paint and I don't know a thousand words
So I can't show you my pain, my anguish
My tears don't shine with hate
Nor do my eyes glisten in agony
My heart don't bleed though it is broken
I can't move you with my voice
I can't warm you heart with love
I can't make you feel what you won't understand
I can't teach what was never taught to me
And if I could do all those things,
A burden I'd never be
For the weight I carry on my back
Was meant for none to see