Cursed to not find love again

I guess i compared you
with my past loves
loved the company
just couldn't trust

been taken for a ride before
i just can't do it anymore
thoughts warp inside my brain
till i feel I'm going real insane

i can't see good, i can't see bad
just in betweens, i know its sad
once bitten twice shy, that is why
i can't see rainbows in the sky

only rain and cloudy days
loveless nights and days of pain
why can't i see the sunshines rays
beaming happiness down my way

i guess I'm just set in my ways
like rain and sun and cloudy days
if i could only rise like the sun
and cast out the rainy days

I'd be the lover you're searching for
there for you at your beck and call
giving love and needing more
instead i live and dream in awe

but.........oh theres always a but
something that blocks my way
I'm doomed to these dark nights
without the sunny days

can't see past the buts I'm blocked
defenses of heart or brain
not sure which think I'm bewitched
or cursed to not find love again