WHY??

by deeplydesturbed   Apr 20, 2006


I don't get what people mean
when they say
i don't care
it doesn't matter anyway

do they mean
i do care but i don't want you to know
or could they mean
i just don't care I'm not for show

there is one thing
i can tell you this
i remember my younger days
they were a bliss

my dear uncle
then you came along
and screwed up my life
now i cant even sing my favorite song

i was in my room
listening to it
in you crept
and told me to sit

you grabbed me hard
and pushed me down
then you raped me
while i was on the ground

i tried and tried
but you didn't stop
time almost slowed down
i looked at the clock

after what seemed for hours
you got up and left
i lay there in silence
wishing you'd bought death

i now wish i was dead
that someone would kill
would come up behind me
bury me under a hill

but even then
i would still know
you're out there
all for show

i didn't tell anyone
i was scared
now i cry my silent tears
that Ive never shared

i sit in the dark
wishing you back
so you'd finish me off
and shove me in a sack

why did you do it
why choose me
I'm now blind to answers
and still cant see

i still feel dirty
no matter how many times i shower
its like you've taken
away all my power

I'm must say goodbye
I'm sorry, i am
i cant believe i hate you
my own uncle Sam

please comment on my poem an yes this really happened 2 me. i never shared it with anyone except my best friend (my rock and shoulder 2 cry on) and then my friend told me this website helped her and it would be good 2 rite a poem about it so people can read it and feel how i felt. don't feel sorry for me please but do rite comments. thanks much appreciated

Me

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  • 7 years ago

    by Lucifer

    (S) -h-(am) -e on such people!
    Manhood should be taken from such people.

  • 8 years ago

    by IdTakeABulletForYou

    Definitely a difficult situation, and it's amazing to see how strong and mature of a person you've become in all these years. Your depression makes sense now... this is not something you can get over very easily :(

    I'm always here for you when you need me :)

    5/5
    Much love,
    IdTakeABulletForYou

    • 8 years ago

      by deeplydesturbed

      I wasnt expecting you to read it!!!
      I was trying to put it nicely. and i like to thank this site for helping me grow some balls and speak up. :)

      Also thank you S :) It means a LOT

      I hope it also explains some of my darker works =/

  • 8 years ago

    by Em

    This is really saddening because like you it happens to many people around the world and I feel it won't stop happening until the world ends. I will not say how it feels because each of us who have been through this ordeal will feel differently but what I will say is well done for speaking out and f you ever need an ear I have two very good listening ones.

    Take care and all the best, Em

  • 14 years ago

    by amber

    The poem is very moving as som1 who had that happen to them i kno wat u r going thru and still keeping it to myself but oh well every1 has different ways of going thru things..
    keep up ur poems they are realy good to read
    xoxo
    ambz

  • 18 years ago

    by Anna

    I like this one because its real and not a fake poem

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