Crying Myself to Death

You knew that I'd been hurt before
you knew that my past followed
that if I cried a single tear
I'd break down and I'd be swallowed.

You knew I couldn't handle much
you knew that I'd fall down
and still you watched over me
lifting up my endless frown.

You knew you couldn't save me
that I was broken and couldn't mend
tried to bring me back to reality
since I'd been living so much in pretend.

You knew I couldn't be loved
like a rose, I'd prick your existence
I thought you truly loved me
that you'd follow me, any distance.

Here I am today
a beautiful walking disaster
and if you do come back to me
nothing will be left of me, of her.

It took courage to cut the last threads of my being,
but now that I've been released
I'm jailed from ever fleeing.

I've cried one thousand billion tears
and I've tried to love my insides
I've watched one thousand billion fears, and I've believed to many lies.

I cannot stop these tears that flow
fresh tears linger on my face
and when you leave and dont come back, I'll be left longing for your embrace.

And who will stop my tears now
and who will hold me long
who will whisper words of encouragement, and who will make me believe I'm strong?

I've lost my soul already
my soul will be yours when you go
and when you find yourself another
I'll still be the one that loves you so.

When I age to an old lady
and I take my final breath
you'll be the one I'm thinking of
as I'm crying myself to death.