A life that has only begun

The scars on my arm is just a small part
Of the great deal of pain that lies in my heart.
As I cut once I feel pain on pain.
To release everything that I have done in shame.

To release how people make me feel like i'm not worth it.
Oh God then I take a blade to my wrist and cut slits.
The deeper I go the better I feel.
Then this non reality turns real.

I'm lying on the floor regreting every cut
All the sudden I feel sickness in my gut.
Somethings wrong I thought rolling up into a ball.
I started crawling, picking myself up with the help of a wall.

I just fall back down, this time to my knees
and begging help me God please
I close my eyes and start to faint away
Realizing its gone too far I begin to pray

God save me from this nightmare
Save me from this dare
Save me from the deep hole im in
Please forgive me for this sin

I open my eyes to see the blood has stopped
No more blood from my cuts has dropped
I thank the Lord for what he has done
For saving my life that has only begun