As i sit here i ponder
i remember all the mistakes i made with you
but now we stopped
and seeing eachother no longer
You went from my lust to pain
Then from my pain to my heartache
and again to what i yearned for
my heart is twisted and in strain
At school it\'s almost like we\'ve never met
A discreet gaze or a small hug
We dont belong to one another so this is how it has to be
But on our days things are oppositely set
I always imagine how it would be if we became a couple
Exposed to everyone instead of keeping secrets
Would we cheat on eachother or stay faithful
Or would our passion die or just double
I dont want to fall in love with you
Cause at the very moment i do everything will go wrong
I wouldnt know how to deal with that again
And it would be disastrous if you loved me too
The other day it again went too far
One thing led to another
And in a matter of the most extrodinary minutes ever
We were have sex in someone\'s backyard
The sex wasnt the bad part though
It was when i got really intimate
It was when you said this would be our temporary last
It was bad when it was time to let you go
Although this seperation isnt permenant
It still worries me since we just had sex
A lot of things could happen
Such as me getting pregnant
I hope im not
Especially if it\'s by you
It\'s hard to tell if you\'d be there for me
Or if you\'d leave me in distrot
But all that is just me worrying
Over a simple yet complicated you
This infaduation is getting overwhelming
Because you are both my curse and my blessing
