My Life Without You

I cant help but sit here
And think about you
Even after all the things
You put me through

I think of all the times you told me
You would always be here
But when I needed you most
You were never there

I think of how I loved you
Oh so much
But no matter what I did
It was never enough

I think of how you loved her
While I was loving you
And how I could never live up to her
No matter what I do

I ask myself why
Why you stayed so long
When you knew all along
It was for her love you longed

I think about it a lot
Probably more than I should
It just kills me to know
If you could date her, you would

Its like I didnt even matter
Its like you never even cared
Like it didnt bother you
To throw away the love that we shared

If only I could tell
Your truth from a lie
Then maybe I would know
All the answers to my whys