Someone help

Feeling so lost, so lonely in this world.
Wanting to let go, trying to get the feel of this twirl.
Hurting deep inside yet saying not a word.
I'm still wondering if i can find who i am with out being herd.
Taking risks that I'm not supposed to yet take.
Calling in love's is the kind of risks i take.
Belief is hard, family is gone. Friends of mine arnt all that strong.
They wont help, they refuse to know me now,
Calling me for a day of church when i want to sleep and freze in the snow.
Wearing my dark colors, representing what i want.
Being shunned from life from people i once loved.
Growing thin, growing pale, lost in the world, Its now become a hell.
The earth is dieing, shes lost as well as i. Maybe i should be like the earth,
Flood people out and cry. Burn out their hate, mash their homes like potatoes.
Die from starvation for no rain with in. Holding onto earth, what kind of sin ?
One day I'll give out, let the people know. I wont hold back one day, I promise i will show,
I'll show them all my hate, All my fears as well. I tell him how much Ive been threw,
Show them all the hell. I fall to my knees, crying I'm so weak.
God i hope someone loves me enough to pick me up and seek. Seek into my heart,
Find the hurt and dead me. My dark, my light, i hope someone loves me enough so i wont have to fight.
Let me give up, My turn is long overdue. Someone take life off my hands please i promise I'll love you.