I know how it feels to have a grandparent pass, and to attend the funeral how it must feel to have to sit and cry wishing he hadn’t died. I couldn’t make it I didn’t want to make it disgraceful for you but I couldn’t do it couldn’t walk behind the doors to see you and say good bye. I ran to crow and stayed their until I heard they buried you. I’m doing fine no I think that’s a lie I’m left here wishing I could see you and hug you and tell you I miss you. I’m afraid to do something like go to a party and have my fun because in your eyes you might think I’m a wild child. But I don’t know how to deal with the pain that I get each and everyday in a new way.
Some day’s I want to quit hanging out with the wrong clique, and debating if I should drink I felt so bad for Janice and you and the others that were close to you. I drank those days until I almost got caught then I dogged that clique. I didn’t know how to handle the pain I get each and everyday in a new way.
I know how it feels to have a grandparent pass, and to attend the funeral but I didn’t go I couldn’t I was ashamed of what I did I just wanted it to all end and be the same.
