...I think of friends...school...college...life...and all i wish to do is just....scream....there are things said in vain, said deeply from the heart, and barely taken into consideration....then there are those things never said that one wishes to say....and other things never said that one simply can't...say....a turning of the head into the darkness...and all i can see is the light on the other side...yet I'm never walking...I'm static...staring at two eyes that never stare back at me....loving a heart that will never love mine....being passionate about a soul, never truly knowing mine....thinking that maybe they are the ghosts...until i realize that it is...me...standing in front of a closed door...just waiting for a safe, that will never open....and i listen...press my ear to figure out the combination....until i find myself being pushed back by a hurricane.....a storm of emotions with waves splashing onto the cliffs.....and then darkness....blood and tears...figure it out yulianna, what will you do next?....where will you run?...where will you hide this time?....where are your words?....quick...you're running out of time...think!......and then I'm standing on top of a building....ready to fall....ready to scream to the world....that i love...but that i failed to understand....that i opened up my heart....and yet...it was simply closed....that i saw it pump with incredible strength....but still...it wasn't enough....and i see the sky....fall to my knees....and ask why?.....why?!...with a sea falling from my eyes....and i feel someone standing behind me....i breath in.....hold it....and there's a plastic bag on my face....i try screaming....but no one listens....my arms and legs are paralized....and my murderer is only pulling harder....and harder....with my heart at the throat....you don't understand yulianna....you can't see....and now...you're dead.
