Why?

Why do i want to live if i want to die
why do i keep letting myself cry
why don't i run away leave everything behind
why is it I'm not nothing to no one even if i try
why don't they just leave me alone and let me b
why is it people never trust me
why am i crying if i just want to die
why do i keep holding on to tears i cry inside
why is it i feel my heart breaking
why do i keep asking myself these questions when i already know the meanings