What a solemn night in the midst of loneliness
Death it seems, isn't too far from my grasp
What my imagination leads me to believe,
That things would be far better off if I were to leave
I can't stand the pain of a growing world
My hands are trembling, my conscience torn
I'm left here in this aching silence
Forcing my mind to fall into a state of reminisce
I'll eat away at my skin with this knife in my hand
Things hurt so bad when you feel forced away from a lover or a friend
Life, it seems isn't as easy as some make it look
Death is a friend now, and my soul it took.
It's okay, please wipe your tears
There's no need in crying just because I'm no longer here
I'm happier now, this i can assure
So please, in the eve of all that is happening, don't force yourself to mourn
My body is dry, and there's a knife in my heart
My life taken away because of all the heartache this tragic world brought
Leave my body on the floor
Leave everything around it, I don't need my blood anymore
With a stopped heart and death cold skin
Things didn't play out the way it should have been
Pain and sadness took my life that night
It wasn't me even though it is I that holds the knife
I'm not happy and I was well afraid
But I wouldn't want to be here a second longer when I know I could be dead
The sky cries a mournful rain
And the churches lack their joyful sing
The state of pain will soon fade
I can assure that you will all forget this sorrowful mistake I have made
So for now close your bibles and leave my casket in the ground
I'll lay in this bed with a blissful frown
For when I awake I'll find myself lying in bed
Only to sit up and think of tonight's tears I'll shed
Though it was a nightmare to some, for me it was a dream
Sometimes I wish life would give us the "meant to be's"
All of this is too unreal for me
So I'll wrap up in my blankets and to the heavens I'll plee
Forgive me dear father for I know not what I do
But death seems like such a quick fix for this pain I go through
I'll whisper my prayers and cover my pillow in tears
As you'll walk in to find horrible news.
