Hate the way you look at me

Sometimes I hate you for the things you do,
the way you look me up and down,
with this disgusted look on your face.
like I failed you, or I am not good enough for you ,
not pretty enough, smart enough.
You can't make be someone I am not,
and I wont change for you.
I never want to be like you,
and I never will.
Here I am and this is all I will be.
I am just happy with who I am,
no one can change me.

I will never come to you begging for anything,
nothing!!
No matter how much I need help,
you will be last on my list.

Its funny that I can hate you this much,
but then somewhere in my heart I find a place for you.
and I love you.