Drowning in my Sadness

At First, I sensed it
A touch of the miserable drop

It started out small
But it didn't seem to stop

I made a difficult intent
To fight every fear

To release whenever dispatched
The smallest speck of a tear

Whenever I'd feel
Like I wouldn't go on anymore

I gave every attempt
To spread my wings and soar

My ocean was alternating
From a Lo tide to a high

Disregarding the fact
Since I was always pushed to try

The drench was only getting closer
Soaking away my success

In the process of a fall
In the start of a painful distress

Losing every breathe
Running out of precious time

Descending in it all
Quickly receiving all the signs

Still in front of you
But vanished inside

Nowhere to run to now
No place to hide

Seems like only a day ago
I was happily placed with a true grin

But dreams just dont match with me
They float far, and I submerge within

As I go in deeper
I'm unable to loosen the tight tie

Holding me down
Not long until I die

Before I let go,
I want to say that I tried to be strong
Lying, Fooling myself all along

Trying to overcome all the pain
Covering myself
from the emotionally felt rain

Sinking through the torture of every single day
Slowly drowning deep down
Until I'm gone and away