2 Sided Mirror (Turning 13)

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Two Sided Mirror

I look in to a mirror
As tall as myself
I see two people
Instead of one

I look closely
And watch the woman I've become
She has soft, pink-white skin
Icy, slate-blue eyes
Snowy, light blond hair
The queen that lies inside
A vision of serenity
And yet hopelessly lonely
With cherry lips
And eyes that want to cry
But instead she's smiling
Saying, "How good it feels to be alive"
I get this feeling in the pit of my heart
She's the reason I survived

Suddenly, the mirror cracks
And behind it is another
There is my second form
I certainly do love her
She's the little girl
Curious of this world
Picking flowers for the sad people
And playing with the happy people
She has short, black hair
And glimmering black eyes
The cutest little lips
That's the girl I am inside
She loves animals
And says everything has feelings
The little girl inside of me
Who has been simply sleeping

The edge of my world collapsed
When I kept turning into another
I didn't know which I could be
So I turned into my own wonder
My mirror now shows someone
With black-red-brown hair
Shining eyes with no regrets
Striving to do my very best
She wears glasses so she can see
The world and all its wonders
She cries when she wants to leave
And laughs when she goes under

I'm proud of the girl I've become
But still I am not sure
How I will be when I'm 13
Will I still me (im)mature?
Will I be able to pick flowers
Will I still try my very best?
I surely do not want
The little girl inside to go to rest
I want to be me
I'm tired of being torn apart
When I am 13
I'm turning this mirror into shards
I don't want to leave my childhood
I want my life to turn out good
I don't want to be a woman yet
So I'm stuck inbetween
I guess...
I don't want to accept the fact
That I'm going to be a teen