Did love have a plan for me when you entered my life?
I was blinded by my hopes and dreams when I became your wife.
The danger signs were all ignored when you promised to whisk me away,
A regular knight in shining armor rescuing me day after day.
Tantrums, humiliation, conditions and approval dancing around our heads.
My life with you was a fabric woven with dysfunctional threads.
I could not do enough for you, I felt such a sense of shame.
Whenever you experienced a disappointment in life, I was the one you would blame.
You betrayed my trust repeatedly, throwing my deepest fears back in my face.
Lashing me regularly with those cat o' nine tails words causing me such disgrace.
Scarring me with my own experiences, which in you I would confide,
My self esteem could not exist, for your approval was always denied.
My best was never good enough and when something in my life brought me joy,
In your sights it would remain until it could be destroyed.
My overwhelming need to please almost cost me my life,
existing in that empty hole as your subservient wife.
