You and me will never be

Is this just a dream about you and me ? I just dont know thats not the way it seems. When your lips gently touched down on mine i got this strange feeling deep inside. It was not fear anger or agression instead i think it was depression you filled me up with sadness because i love u so and did not want you to go. Everyone leaves me probably you would have too thats why i can not bring myself to love you.