Blinking Lights

The blinking lights are all over.
green, red, white, yellow, purple.
pitches of black covers up a bit.
the ambulance hurries to the seen.
but the pulse just stops in a second.

the breeze is fresh in the air.
the birds aren't singing free.
the rain is coming down hard.
i sit on my bed knowing you aren't here.

you use to tell me that it's OK.
that I'll be safe because i was with you.
but now what do i have.
am i still safe with knowing you don't have me?

as we buried you today.
i just sit there in amazed.
in a puzzle knowing nothing.
they told me i had to speak.
but the words weren't there.

the tears were poring down.
but you did tell me not to cry.
i can't help it though.

i pull a piece of paper out.
the writings of scribbles.
the writings of tears.
the ink poring down at my knees.

"have you ever wondered what it would be like.
if someone so important to you died.
well today is one of those feelings.
i love you so much.
i can't ever let go of you.
even if you aren't with me now.
so I'll let you sleep forever.
I'll look above me all times.
smile at you and blow a kiss.
tell you i love you.
and see you again someday"

i just stood there.
watching as the lights go shadowed.
the blinking lights are all over.
green, red, white, yellow, purple.