Devoid of your love

As I think about your love my hands begin to shake,

I existed just for you, which was my first mistake.

I believed all of those lies as I gazed into your eyes,

Never imagining our future together.

Where I would be climbing a mountain of misery,

Trying to prove my worth repeatedly,

Serving a life sentence of torture
forever.

On eggshells I did carefully step,

From your reprimands and punishments I wept,

But the promise I made on that fateful wedding day was kept,

With the hope that you would change.

You didn't.

For everyone else you would put on quite a show.

Who was that man I would never know?

When your audience would close the door,

You'd throw your mask upon the floor and revert back to the demon I knew so well,

My life with you was a living hell.

Your words formed a noose around my neck,

While I dined on poisonous meals you fed me that robbed me of my self respect.

For years I received each and every blow convinced I had no place to go,

And I even thanked you wholeheartedly for reconsidering your decision to discard me,

Like I was a piece of trash.

How could I be so lucky?

The cruel way you treated me backfired miserably,

Because I eventually built up resistance.

My darling Bruce,

Something you failed to see is that your words no longer affected me,

A life with you devoid of your love became a normal existence.