I Can't Deal

I just can't deal
With all of this.
And I don't see
What I'll miss.

I can't deal
With the fights.
Parents shouting,
Out go the lights.

I can't deal
With the hate.
No respect,
And no mate

I can't deal
With this broken heart
Once mended,
And again torn apart.

As I stare
At this shiny knife,
I think of why
I want to end my life.

The dozens of pills
I just swallowed
Only make me feel
Empty and hollow.

I want to know
Why life's this way.
Why I can't deal
With each passing day.