Black tears

Held on till theres nothing left,
you had no choice but death

all you wanted was one last hug
one last kiss, and all of my love

you couldnâ??t move, you couldnâ??t speak
you couldnâ??t function, your body was too weak

I couldnâ??t fight it
I held on to you longer than expected
to make sure you would be protected

dead inside, heart is cracked
emotions of sadness still intact
my love for you, has only grown
I just wish I couldâ??ve shown you

no second chances, no clean slate
no lullabies to put you to sleep
or a kiss goodbye on your cheek
not even a last I love you dear
all thatâ??s left are these black tears

*i wrote this poem a few weeks after i had an abortion. i was already 5 months when i had the pregnancy ended. i found out the day before that i was having a boy, i named him Matthew James. i miss him so much, and at times i second guess my decision, but now im forced to live without him. he\'ll forever be my precious lil angel*