A new life for me

All i wanted was a new life
Yet here I am again
I dont know how to be
All i say is when
I wanted her for a lover
Nows shes just a friend
I hate my life
She makes it so
All my hate begins to show
No friends can i have
For she is jealous you see
All of the sudden she care about me
But why i wonder
Im no good
I hate to cry
And show my softness
I hate to shut down
And cut off all closeness
I just wanted someone to be mine
But i dont think ill ever find
Maybe just a girl i make up
In my mind
A dream?
Can there be a new life for me?
Can there be a new way for hope?
Can there be a way of escape?
With the hatred i wanna show
When i want something
Its never in my grasp
My hate is grows
My face it show
My anger is here
And i want to cause fear
And many many tears
I want her to know my pain
And from me theres nothing left
But a hollow empty shell
Brung together by the fires of hell
But maybe just maybe
Theres still hope
maybe there can still
maybe i wont have to show
all the hate inside of me

maybe theres still a chance for a new life for me